Letting Go and Letting God

Pictured: Jennifer and Jessica in the Muskogee Regional Medical Center ICU after Jessica regained consciousness.


When I was growing up there were several popular bumper stickers (none of which ever donned my Daddy's chrome): "Honk! If you love Jesus", "God is my Co-Pilot", "Lucky Me I Live in Longview", "Let Go and Let God", etc...
Some were funny and some didn't mean much.  This past weekend I learned the value of the last one, I had to let go and let God do what He wanted.  I have learned this about the music ministry, but when your life is unexpectedly detoured you sometimes grab at anything and everything you can to hold on to.
It was Memorial Day weekend and I was looking forward to having our Heaven-themed service.  I knew that Pastor and his family would be out of town so we would need to "step up" and put extra effort into all of the music.  Little did we know that we would be needed in Muskogee, Oklahoma to be with our daughter, Jessica, while she was in ICU.  (You can read this story in another other blog..)
While we were on our way we all had to make phone calls - choir director, Amy Robinson, Sunday school superintendents, Connie Vazquez, Pastor, etc... to let all know we would not be able to fulfill our Sunday positions.  I thought about my Sunday School class, the specials I was supposed to play for, the choir, choir rehearsal, and just being at my church.  Then I thought, this is out of my hands, let go and let God do His work.
I never have to worry because I have capable and talented musician friends who are ready at a moment's notice to do whatever is needed.  What a blessing!  I knew that I would miss being there more than they would miss my being there and that consoled me.
Then I turned to grab at any ideas on how to help Jessica, bargain for her with the Lord, try to work things out in my life so God would heal her, find out the why and how of her illness, ask questions, etc... Then the Lord reminded me to "let go".  I couldn't change anything by saying "what if" or blaming doctors, nurses, or paramedics.  I couldn't help the situation by preaching to Jessica about the dangers of diabetes type I as she lay unconscious in the ICU.  I just sat there and worked on trusting.  I trusted the cranky nurse, the doctor who looked like he belonged on the Food Network, the "Red Neck" nurse, and the doctor who reminded me of a Pentecostal nanny.  Then I realized I was just trusting God and His perfect plan for us.  No matter how you got there, He let you get there, He is with you every step of the way, He provides each need, and He feels  our heartaches.
As I look back on it, I can chuckle a little and say, "Why did I even worry?"  But in the midst of the trial, when the fear and unknown are before you,  you have to let go and work on trusting.  Get a verse or a song in your heart, then just let go and let God.

Isaiah 65:24 - And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear.